Monday, May 11, 2015

Reflection

This whole year overall was really crazy regarding 20 time. Sometimes I would love to just go home friday after school and work on my project because I was that excited about it. But then the project began to feel like a burden at times. I didn't loose interest in my topic, I just felt that other homework or activities were of more importance at times when I knew that I hadn't even thought about 20 time in about a month.

But overall, I really liked 20 time. It gave me the chance to finally advance in songwriting. Without 20 time, I feel like my songwriting wouldn't have improved at all this year. It also pressured me into finally writing scenes with just dialogue and no music. It forced me to explore areas of music and shows and things I'm interested in but haven't looked very closely at. I am definitely going to continue writing music because it is an amazing outlet and just a really creative way to express yourself. But now, my songs are not going to be based around a story.

The entire process of the show did not go very well for me if I'm being honest. Well, at least compared to the goals that I set, it didn't develop as well as I wanted it to. I knew writing a show was going to be tons of work but what I didn't realize was that my procrastination, tied in with a little bit of laziness would prevent me from getting where I wanted to be by the end of the year. That's something else 20 time taught me. If you really want something, you have to work for it. I read things on musical development so I could get a vision on how to build my show but I did not get nearly enough info. I tried to jump right into the process without much outside help and that wasn't smart. The first few things were easy but getting deeper and deeper into the project, having needed information withdrawn did not help me.

Something I would have changed would have definitely been how I managed my time. Especially this year because this year was significantly more busy for me. I always had to be somewhere and when I would finally get home, I had to prioritize my homework and 20 time never ended up on the top of that list. So there were several times that 20 time ended up forgotten. If I could change anything, I would make my friday nights devoted to only 20 time related affairs instead of Jerome related affairs.

Something that really stuck with me while doing 20 time is that sometimes it is ok to be selfish. I remember when Mr. Provenzano first introduced our class to 20 time. The idea to write a musical was the first thing to pop up in my mind. But then, I heard previous students, and my current classmates talk about doing work for a charity or some kind of good cause. I began to question my idea of writing a show and thought maybe I should do something that can benefit more then just me. But 20 time isn't about doing what seems right. It is about finding your passion and going for it. If I were to do something regarding raising awareness for something, sure I would feel good about it, but I wouldn't be putting as much effort into it because that is not something I'm particularly passionate about. Somebody who really is passionate about raising awareness for something should do that because they would put in 1000% more effort into it than I would.

So thank you 20 time, and Mr. Provenzano. For giving me all of these life lessons to go by, and letting me go even deeper into the realm of the arts and discover some things that would have taken me forever to find without this needed push.